I think I feel the onset of another yeast infection. I honestly cannot express how physically and mentally exhausting it is to deal with one of these things ...especially since this is probably my 10th one in a span of 2 or 3 years. After I give birth, I want to cut out my vagina and all of the female crap that goes a long with it. Too much damn hassle!
Asides from my hatred towards my womanly parts; I'm also feeling quite disconnected from my boyfriend. We haven't been on the same wave length for a while and I feel as though we're only sticking together for the sake of our child. I'm getting really tired of him feeling as though he doesn't need to tell me where he's going (OK obviously not every second but if you're going to stop texting me COMPLETELY ...tell me what you're doing please) ...My anxiousness also comes from my own problems; lack of trust, self esteem issues ...I constantly assume he's cheating, or is planning on cheating, or doing something that I would murder him for. But fuck! I'm stuck at home all day cleaning and doing online assignments, I take care of my sister all week AND deal with the woes of pregnancy, especially the woes of being ALONE and pregnant. I guess it's my fault. I should see more of my friends and quit worrying about someone who clearly doesn't give a flying shit about me.
Oh oh hormones, go away!
Thank God it's Friday! Maybe I can relax .........ha!
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