Met the OBGYN

I met my OBGYN today and he seems nice. Went over the paperwork and all that boring crap. I was asked what I do for a living and felt so pathetic when I answered, "I'm a student." Anyway, I heard baby's heart beat and he said it's very strong and healthy! He also told me that he expects this pregnancy to go very well. My second cousin has spina bifida and I am concerned that it is in my genetics. I hope not. My cousin is amazing but personally, I don't think I'd be able to handle a child with a disability. Then again ...I would have to since there is no way in Hell or anywhere else in this universe that I would abort/give up for adoption. Selfish or not, you take my baby, you take me too. I have to take blood next week (when I'm in my sixteenth week) and they'll be testing for down syndrome, spina bifida etc., This will tell me what my risk is like.

173 more days! Hurry up!

PS. The last time I went to my family doctor I was around 13 weeks and weighed 125 (give or take a pound) and at this appointment with my ObGyn I weigh 130! Well, the scale was a hair before 130 but I'm not obsessing (I REALLY ONLY WEIGH 129.8!) Anyway, this is excellent because in 4 months I've only gained 5 pounds. If I can keep this up maybe I'll only gain 10 pounds! Haha, probably not ...I'm trying for 15 at most! It's hard to keep myself from dieting though ...130 is the heaviest I've ever been.

Baby Registry

I was on Babies 'r Us and cannot, for the life of me, figure out what a baby needs! Well, of course I know the basics: crib, stroller, clothes, diapers, food. But what else? Receiving blankets, bumper pads, jumpers ...what? I think I'm going to wait until I found out the sex and then head over to Walmart and Babies 'r Us personally and pick out everything I need.

My belly looks pregnant now, finally. Not huge or anything, but noticeable. I can't wait until a stranger says, "Aw! How far along are you?" I just hope they don't wait until AFTER I have the baby.

Tomorrow makes 15 weeks! Wednesday is my OBGYN appointment so I need to figure out what kind of questions I'll be asking him.

175 days to go!

I think it's a girl

This girl, around my age, is having a baby boy and her belly looks like a beach ball. Another girl, around my age, is having a baby girl and her stomach looks like mine (a bigger version though since she's in her 23rd? week) ...An old wives tale also says that if you look like shit (uneven complexion, pimples, dry hair etc., EVERYTHING I AM EXPERIENCING) then you're having a girl because she's stealing all of your beauty. Well god damn, this baby must be one beautiful little girl because I look like SHIT!

November 23rd is my next ultrasound and I'll be 19 weeks then; if it's a girl then I was right! But if it's a boy, STOP MAKING MOMMY SO UGLY!

179 more days :)

Movement?

Last night I did feel the baby move. *Run your finger gently across your stomach, and it was that feeling but on the inside* It was so cool! I cannot wait until I can actually SEE the movement!

I also have a crazy craving for poutine and greek salad with lots and lots of feta!

14 weeks

I am now 14 weeks pregnant. For the past week I've been extremely itchy and sneezing at least ten times a day. Other than those two weird, probably unrelated "symptoms," I haven't been feeling any body changes. I want to feel my baby move dammit!

181 more days!

Fat Pants and Meeting The Family pt. 4

I bought thick tights from Garage (20 bucks) and my boyfriend grabbed 2 pairs of sweat pants for me! Thank God! I will never wear jeans, I swear. Sweat pants are a GOD SEND!

• Anyway, I met my boyfriends entire family a month (not even) after we first started talking. No one really acknowledged my existance and I liked it like that.
• The second time I met them, I was at his cousins wedding and I got completely shit faced. I wish I were invisible that night.
• The third time I met his entire family was a year later on his birthday and of course they all recognized me as his girlfriend but still, no one really gave a damn to really acknowledge me.
• Yesterday I met them for the fourth freaking time and I was not invisible, I was not shit faced, they knew my name, they know I'm pregnant and so I was greeted with warm smiles and hugs and his grandma was holding my hand and asking me how I'm feeling. Well I feel great, how the hell are you? It's sort of weird really, all of the attention on me, all this acknowledgment and acceptance now that I'm carrying their future family member. I guess I'm part of the family now. His grandpa even asked when my boyfriend's going to marry me.

My boyfriend just laughed and shook his head. Oh, love.

183 more days! So that's 13 weeks and 5 days ...

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Last night my boyfriend cell phone alarm went off at 12:01 am and I thought one of his friends were texting him (which annoyed my hormonal ass) but it was an alarm he set saying "14th week" or something. I thought it was really sweet that he's now keeping track; too bad he set it on the wrong day! haha

Too Small!

...I'm not too small, my clothes are. They've somehow shrunk, I swear.

I really need to buy a few pairs of fat pants and ...fat shirts because I'm just popping out of everything. I also need to cut my shabby hair and dye it! I've been Googling like a mad woman and hair dye is safe so long as you're not dying your hair in a confined space. I'm in my second trimester, so I should be fine. I'll wait until I talk to my ObGyn (27th of Oct.) and see what he has to say.

Hopefully the boyfriend will buy me some fat clothes!

185 more days!
(13 weeks 3 days ... counting like this makes time go by soooo slow)

Drugs vs. Au Naturel

An epidural seems like a savior for women in labor but personally, I find myself thinking that feeling every single moment, regardless of how painful it may be, is something I want to do. I know that it will hurt, and I will scream and cry; I might even regret not having an epidural but ... I really want to do this naturally! This is my first pregnancy, my first child; I want to experience it all! Last night my boyfriend asked me if we're going to do Lamaze classes (I have to look into that!) because he wants to experience everything. The fact that he's so excited makes me that much happier to be doing this with him, and I know if I choose to deliver naturally he'll be by my side 100%.

186 more days until this baby is expected to arrive!
(13 weeks 2 days along)

Apparently ...

Canesten tablet suppositories aren't recommended for pregnant women. The tubes of cream are though. I really wish I knew that before I endured acid on my precious pink.
The exam went well and I'm still perfect.

Ace.

An Apple A Day Keeps The Doctor Away

FALSE! I just ate an apple and it gave me heart burn.

I'm going to the doctor's soon to get an exam; gotta make sure everything's intact in there. And I have a few other gross concerns I need to discuss with him. It's going to be a very, very, very, very embarrassing appointment.

(I'm 13 weeks and 1 day pregnant today! According to the zillion pregnancy e-mails I get, my fetus is about the size of a shrimp. Gross comparison.)

12 week old fetus

How did you know?!

The most commonly asked question I get is: How did you know you were pregnant? Or, what made you take a test? How did it happen?

My cycle is fairly regular, 29 to 31 days. I was on my 34th or 35th day when I decided to take the test. I noticed that my boobs were becoming sorer than usual; they're tender when I'm PMSing but this was just, not normal. It felt like I had a pair of bricks on my chest. The day I found out, my boobs felt like cement blocks.

Anyway, I told my boyfriend and my Mom that I was concerned and of course, boyfriend thinks nothing of it because I had myself tricked into believing that I was in fact, no doubt about it, infertile. Ha. My Mom, on the other hand, suspected I was pregnant. Boyfriend bought me First Response (it came with 2 tests) and he went home because he had family coming over.

I've taken countless pregnancy tests in the past and every single one of them were negative. I have never been pregnant. I thought this was going to be another negative and my period was just being a bitch. Well, my period really was being a bitch because it wasn't planning on visiting any time soon.

2 PINK LINES! I was in shock. My Mom was in shock. I cried. She cried. She called all of her friends to tell them the news. I texted mine. My best friend tried to convince me that sometimes tests are wrong and I should take the other test tomorrow morning when my hCG levels are highest. I took it. Positive. She then reassured me and told me that a blood test is the most accurate and I should wait til that test came back positive ...and then freak out.

I called my boyfriend and told him what the evil piss test said and he almost died. He cried. Screamed. Begged. It was terrible. He wanted me to have an abortion. He accused me of doing this on purpose. I found myself crying and defending the little guy inside me, and told him that if he wanted to break up and have no part in our relationship and our child's life then so be it, he can leave. I was willing to give up my boyfriend, whom I love so much, for a 5 week old sperm cell. But it was my 5 week old sperm cell.

At 8 weeks I got my first ultrasound. It's heart was beating. 160 BPM. Til then I had sincerely considered abortion, but after that, after seeing a LIVING person inside of ME, there was no way in fucking hell. My boyfriend finally understood, and now accepts the fact that he is going to be a father and believe it or not, he loves this fetus with all of his heart.

I am now 13 weeks pregnant and as you have read, I have shitty symptoms. My boyfriend and I got an ultrasound (well it was more me getting an ultrasound and him watching in awe) at 12 weeks. The baby was kicking and I swear he/she has his bum! I know he's happier than ever after seeing that! I am too! I cannot wait until I feel him/her move!

13 weeks

Thursday I discovered I have a yeast infection. I consulted a doctor and was told that Canesten would take care of it. I should have used the seven day treatment because it's a lower dose and lasts longer, but instead I went for a 3 day quick fix. Every day, after inserting the suppository, it burned. Acid was on my vagina. Saturday night I moaned and groaned from the pain and ended up passing out. I really don't think that's normal. I'm trying to see my doctor today to get an exam, hopefully the infection has cleared up, but the likelihood of him seeing me today is slim.

After having sex Monday morning, I began spotting. My vagina was so sore it was unbelievable. I don't know if the infection is still present and that's why I bled after having sex or if my vagina is just being a stupid bitch and giving me all of these problems.

I also have a cold; runny nose, coughing, sneezing, watery eyes and what seems to be an ear infection.

Did I mention how much I love being pregnant?

If I can't see my doctor today, I might go to the hospital. Or a walk-in clinic tomorrow.

In regards to the 13 week mark of my pregnancy, my belly seems to have popped a bit and I look more pregnant and less bloated.

12 weeks 4 days Pregnant

I'm eighteen and pregnant. 

When I was younger I used to think being pregnant was such a beautiful experience and every pregnant woman glows and looks beautiful! It's not.

Beautiful skin was not a symptom that I was lucky enough to get. Instead, my skin is dry, very sensitive and prone to frequent breakouts. I am constantly getting rashes, and I've also been blessed with a yeast infection unlike no other. 

Of course seeing my little fetus on the ultrasound is amazing! And for a few minutes I forget about all of my disgusting problems and anticipate the arrival of my baby! But then I think of my sore boobs, growing stomach, fat ass, and the stretch marks that are just waiting to sneak up on me...

Why can't the man endure some crap too?! They did this to us anyway!

Don't forget the hormones! Mood swings and cravings ...great way to keep your weight down. The boyfriend pissed me off ...so I yell at him and then cry and then I eat. I don't even want to step on another scale.

In a few days I'm off to buy some fat pants and loose shirts! Wish me luck.

AND COCOA BUTTER TOO!