Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Family

It amazes me how so much has changed since August 2010.

  • I found out I was pregnant
  • Debated abortion
  • Battled with Matthew because I wasn't terminating
  • Became best friends with my Grandmother
  • Constant battles
  • Long, endless fights
  • My Mother briefly relapsed
  • I finished E-class with an 85
  • Contacted resources which have helped so much
  • Matthew fell in love with our fetus
  • Stood up to my Mother
  • Grew very distant from my Mother -- resentment
  • Cut off all contact with my Step Father
  • Began setting my future plans
  • Matthew agreed to move in with me
A lot has changed ... I have lost the people I considered family growing up. But, I have created a new family within these nine months -- an amazing family. I love my boyfriend with all of my heart, body, mind and soul. Yes, I sound like an 80's track list. I love my daughter with everything inside of me -- we love our daughter. I am very excited to get an apartment with my family, this July! I know it's going to be a struggle, it's going to be hard, and sometimes it's going to be really frustrating and I might even have thoughts of regret -- but if I didn't have Matthew or my daughter (who really needs a name) I would not feel as complete as I do now. My education is around the corner, I'm just relying on the government for help. My future is within arms reach -- my future is a reality, not just a possibility. I will make it all happen. We will do it together, as a family. I cannot wait! I love life.

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