Ruuuby Ruby Ruby

I love the name Ruby. Why must I love a new name every single month? I only have two weeks left and I can either convince my boyfriend to fall in love with this name as well, or I settle for a name I just like. Dammit!

My Cervix Is Awesome

My OB appointment yesterday told me
1. I weigh 156 lbs which means I only gained 2 pounds in 2 weeks (this tells me that baby is getting fat now and not Mommy!)
2. I am 1 cm dilated and 90% effaced
3. My doctor expects me to give birth earlier than 40 weeks

*HIGH FIVE VAGINA*


Tonight I will be doing squats and lunges as well as kegals. Tomorrow night, my boyfriend is going to provide me with a lot of really rough sex - and semen. Yes, semen softens your cervix! So I'm hoping we can get this bad girl out by next week! (This'll take a lot of sex, haha)

My next appointment is on the 7th of April -- I'll be 38 weeks. I hope she comes out before then!

I have all the laundry done, bags packed for my boyfriend's house. I just need to pack my hospital bag as well as hers and we're set! Woooohooo!

Daddy Wasn't There

I haven't seen my Dad since December 26th 2010. Before that, I hadn't seen him since May 5th 2010. Before that, I hadn't seen him since 2009 some time. He lives 20 minutes away from me.





I know my daughter will have an amazing father. I know he will be there for her no matter what.

Labour Rules

My grandma called me concerned that she wouldn't be able to get a hold of me if something were to happen (eg., in jail, in the hospital, dead) and so I have to make it a point that if anything ever happens, she is one of the first to be notified. I love how much she cares, I really do. My grandma is seriously the greatest person I know. I really miss her too, ugh.

Anyway, I'm going to make a 'Call/text list' for when I go into labour. I'll have my boyfriend or Mom call my grandma when I give birth, and I guess that's basically it for my so-called-list? I don't have family other than her, and I'm sure my friends will all get spam texts/facebook updates when I'm having contractions. Although, when I'm pushing ...actively squeezing her big head out, I don't want people updated!
"She's crowning!" ...no. They can wait until she's out, wrapped up, and sleeping. I really don't want to be overwhelmed. Going over all my "rules," I realize I also need to formulate a birth plan. I also need to pack my hospital bags! I NEED TO GET THIS CHILD'S LAUNDRY DONE!

24 days to go...

I'm getting impatient.

Baby Names List

1. Alexia 

2. Aria
3. Ariel
4. Ava
5. Chloe
6. Laura
7. Leila
8. Maya
9. Mila
10. Norah
11. Ramona
12. Selah
13. Selena

The only names that sound good with Kairi are:
1. Alexia
4. Ava
6. Laura (on the fence about this)
7. Leila
9. Mila
10. Norah
11. Ramona

The only names that my boyfriend actually likes are:
1. Alexia
9. Mila
10. Norah

But he thinks there are too many Alex's:
9. Mila
10. Norah

I'm not too fond of number 9:
10. Norah

I think we've found the winner.

Clutter!

This is little girl's bouncer which was the biggest pain in the ass to set up. One of the pieces wouldn't "click" in so my Mom's boyfriend drilled a screw through it. That's right, drilled. I hope it's set up properly because it doesn't look like the picture on the box. Nothing ever looks like the damn picture on the box.

This is where my little bug will be residing. It's piled high with diaper bags (that I probably will never use) and I still need to wash the sheets (as well as her clothes) soooo...there's a bit of work left to do yet.

 This is under neath the crib! Where else could I store diapers and wipes and laundry detergent?

This, dear God, is the closet. Try sharing your closet with a fetus, I dare you. It's impossible. On top of my dresser is all of her towels and wash clothes, as well as her blankets that she has accumulated over the nine months of her existence. Shoved all the way in the back is a couple of my shirts. Up top, as you can see, is scattered toys, boxes filled with my books and keepsakes, and wires that have no where else to go. I need to organize this closet ASAP!

Almost there!

 I am almost 37 weeks pregnant. That means, I'm almost full term. Come Tuesday, both of us will be ready! I am excited but still very scared. I just hope I don't need a c-section, I'd like to do this as naturally as possible! Think I can handle it?

26 days left! I am 89% done my pregnancy!

36 Weeks: Belly Has Dropped!

 My belly has obviously dropped. This means I can actually zip up sweaters! Although, I waddle a hell of a lot more now and I constantly have to pee. I've been getting Braxton Hicks contractions almost daily and everything aches. I'm 36 weeks a long as of today and I am READY! I have everything I need for this little girl... although, I still need to wash everything. Such a tedious task I've been delaying for so long. My body is more than ready, can you tell?

The only thing left to do is .....pick a name. Every time I choose a name, my boyfriend insults it. It's really pissing me off because I want us to AGREE and I want us both to love the name. We're going to have to say this name for the rest of our lives so we might as well like it. He loves the name Kairi and I am using it for the middle name, but this name makes it incredibly difficult to settle on a first name. Kairi is so modern! And I have such old fashioned taste. However, the two of us agree on Norah but I'm unsure if it goes well together. Norah Kairi. Ughhghghgh! I'm going to come up with a list and tell him to cross out every name he dislikes. If he crosses out the entire list, all Hell will break lose.

Teenager

I feel like living at home and being a "teenager" totally ruined the full experience of being pregnant. It hasn't been 100% exciting and beautiful, it's been sort of annoying. I'm really excited to move out with Matthew and finally have our family together! It's going to be soo hard but so totally worth it. We can do it.
Also, I have decided to wait until Matthew and I see our baby girl and then choose a name.
So far my list is:
Alexia
Ava
Norah
Lara

I really like Norah but it doesn't fit with the middle name, Kairi. Kairi is way too modern for a classic name like Norah. So I'm leaning towards Ava. Ava is popular and flows well with Kairi. Ava Kairi. I like it.

Yeast Infection

The last infection I got was in '10 in the beginning of my pregnancy. It burned like hell. This one is causing me severe cramps. I've been cramping all week. Braxton Hicks? I don't know what the hell to call any of this because it's all so new to me. All I know for certain is that I have a yeast infection. That plus baby equals constant peeing, cramps, and intense moodiness. I want to crawl into my bed and hide from the fucking world.

39 days left! Hurry up!

Potential Name Change

So, I have fallen in love with a name.
Norah.
This was one of my boyfriend's first name suggestions. But I keep thinking about it and it seems to fit so perfectly. Not to mention it means: honor; sun ray, shining light; woman of honor; compassion; light - according to this website apparently


Anyway, I'm going to tell my boyfriend that I'm pretty set on this name now and see what he has to say!

34 Weeks

I suppose it's about time I update my blog properly instead of pictures and half ass sentences!
I can feel my daughter's head as well as feet. Her head is on my left side and her feet are constantly sticking out on my right side. If you look at this video you will be able to see me rub my left side (her head) and see the right of me freak out (her feet). I read that she should be in position by now, or getting into position because as the next few weeks go on, she will have less and less room. I don't want a breech baby! My OB appointment is on Monday so I'll have a chat with him then to see if there's anyway to tell if Alexia is getting ready for go time!
My boobs are sore. My nipples are sore. Sore ... that's not even a fitting word for my breast region. I'm producing colostrum like a cow, literally. I squeeze my boobs the same way a farmer would milk a cow, and out comes the yellow nutritious but surely not delicious milk. I also cannot cross my legs comfortably. Jeans do not fit, I don't know why I still bother. I feel absolutely gross and fat and I hate my body in clothes. I really do feel a thousand times better naked. Once this little girl is out I am totally getting my ass to the gym! Hmmm.. what else? Alexia has taken over my bladder completely. She probably thinks of it as a jumping castle. I'm always eating and always feeling guilty for it. I'm always tired but I can't sleep. I've noticed that wearing no bra/shirt when I sleep helps a lot though...
There is six weeks left and although I am super excited for Alex's birth day, I'm also dreading it! Once she's born, I will no longer be able to cuddle with myself and feel her kicks. I won't be able to say, "oooo I'm pregnant," nor will I be able to bitch about being pregnant! Yes, I will miss bitching. I'll also miss not having a period ...once I give birth, that's 6 weeks of BLOOD and NO SEX! I have never gone six weeks with either. I am NOT looking forward to this at all! My boyfriend thinks I will be happily giving him blow jobs in my bloody diapers ...no...no I don't think that's something I'll be doing.

41 days left until my screaming terror of cute arrives!

33 weeks

YOU CAN COME OUT NOW

Baby Shower!

Feb. 27th was my baby shower and it turned out really well. Lots of fun!

My yummy cake!

I am 41.5 inches around!

This is a Chocolate Diaper! Quite a fun Shower game!

My best friend on my left and two old friends.

My new family!
Aunt Vanessa, Cousin Sarah, me, Godmother/Aunt Lucy

I am 33 weeks today! Alex is still moving lots! My nipples are in a lot of pain! I have the crib and almost everything completely ready! Hurry up little girl! 48 days left!